Listen, family. I need to be transparent with y'all about something that's been heavy on my heart. There's this new Tyler Perry movie that everyone's talking about, and I know some of you might be wondering why I haven't chimed in with my usual breakdown. Here's the thing: I'm not watching it. Not right now. And before you think it's about the quality or the acting (because let's be clear, our people always show up and show out), it's about something much deeper.

I'm in a season of intentional energy curation, and baby, that means being selective about what I allow into my spiritual and emotional space.

Where I Am Right Now

Y'all know I keep it one hundred, so let me paint you the picture. I'm a mama to a beautiful three-year-old who looks at the world with wonder and possibility. I'm an artist trying to navigate multiple creative lanes while fighting that "jack of all trades, master of none" fear that keeps so many of us scattered. I'm dealing with the fresh grief of losing both my parents...and that grief? It doesn't stay buried. It bubbles up at the most unexpected moments, triggered by the smallest things.

I'm also a former teacher who walked away from that system with my spirit bruised and my faith in traditional education shattered. I love helping people, designing beautiful things, and creating spaces that feel like freedom. But sometimes, I feel like I'm floating between worlds, not quite fitting anywhere, searching for my tribe of like-minded souls who understand this journey toward something higher.

In this space, in this season, I have to be militant about what gets access to my energy field.

The Spiritual Reality of What We Consume

Here's what I've learned about myself and maybe you can relate: when you're healing, when you're grieving, when you're trying to elevate: certain content hits different. It's not just entertainment anymore; it becomes spiritual programming. Every movie, every show, every story we absorb is literally rewiring our neural pathways and shifting our energetic frequency.

I've watched enough clips and read enough reviews to recognize the familiar pattern: the cycle of black maternal suffering, the trauma that gets packaged as resilience, the pain that gets celebrated as strength. And while I honor the artistry and the catharsis that these stories provide for some people, I also recognize what they do to MY nervous system, MY healing journey, MY vibration.

I don't need to put myself through watching a black woman in crisis right now. Not because I can't handle it, but because I'm choosing not to marinate in that energy when I'm actively working to heal from my own storms.

The Power of Conscious Consumption

Think about it like this...you wouldn't eat junk food when you're trying to heal your gut, right? You wouldn't blast heavy metal when you're trying to meditate. So why would I consume trauma-centered content when I'm actively trying to rewire my relationship with peace, joy, and possibility?

I'm not saying these stories don't serve a purpose. They do. They help people feel seen, understood, witnessed in their pain. But for me, right now, feeling seen in my pain isn't what I need. I need to feel seen in my power, my potential, my path forward.

I'm choosing content that elevates my frequency instead of matching where I used to be. I'm watching things that show me possibilities I haven't imagined yet, not reminders of struggles I've already survived.

What I'm Watching Instead

You want to know what's on my current rotation? Nature documentaries that remind me of the magic in this world. Films about people who created beautiful lives from scratch. Stories about healing, about breakthrough, about the kind of love that restores your faith in humanity.

I'm watching things with my daughter that make us both laugh until our bellies hurt. I'm consuming content that teaches me new ways to create, to grow, to become. I'm feeding my spirit with stories that expand my vision of what's possible, not contract it with familiar pain.

This isn't about being in denial or avoiding reality. This is about being intentional with my reality creation. This is about understanding that I get to choose what seeds I plant in the garden of my consciousness.

The Ripple Effect

Here's the beautiful thing about making this choice: it's not just affecting me. My daughter is growing up watching a mama who chooses her joy intentionally. She's learning that we have agency over what we allow into our space. She's seeing that protecting your peace isn't selfish...it's sacred.

When I show up in the world from a place of having protected my energy, I show up better for everyone. I'm more creative, more generous, more capable of holding space for others because I've held space for myself first.

For My People on Similar Journeys

If you're reading this and you're also in a season of intentional healing, elevation, or transformation, give yourself permission to be selective. You don't owe anyone your trauma consumption. You don't have to watch every "important" piece of content that comes out. You don't have to expose yourself to triggering material in the name of staying informed or culturally connected.

You can love your people, support black storytelling, and still choose content that aligns with where you're going instead of where you've been.

Your frequency is precious. Your peace is priceless. Your healing journey deserves to be protected.

Moving Forward

I'm not saying I'll never watch another challenging film. I'm saying that right now, in this season, I'm choosing elevation over excavation. I'm choosing stories that water the seeds of who I'm becoming instead of fertilizing the wounds of who I used to be.

This is what conscious living looks like for me...making choices that honor both where I've been and where I'm going, without sacrificing my present peace for either.

Sometimes the most radical thing you can do is choose joy. Sometimes the most revolutionary act is protecting your own vibration. Sometimes the most powerful statement you can make is simply saying: "Not today. I'm choosing something higher."

And that, my loves, is exactly what I'm doing. And that's "TechNicole-ly" how I feel...💚🥰

What about you? What are you choosing to elevate your frequency today?

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Keep rising, beautiful souls. Your peace is your power.